“With Kali energy, I lifted Jack into the front seat. That’s what it had to be. Jack was two hundred and twenty pounds, and I lifted him into the car. He was so messed up. He couldn’t walk. I didn’t know what to do. I was distraught. I drove him home.” Dear Jack, a love letter. Depicted in statue and illustration, Kali is dark blue or black. She is a fierce force of nature. She holds the bloody head of a demon in one hand while the other holds her knife. She is stepping on Shiva lying in a
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regret |rəˈɡret| verb (regrets, regretting, regretted) feel sad, repentant, or disappointed over (something that has happened or been done, especially a loss or missed opportunity) Certainly grief is the deepest emotion I thought. It cannot be described. It is like pain but it has no physical origin. If there was, perhaps it could be surgically removed, cut out for a minute of relief. But no, we have to live with it and there is no relief. One would think it is the absolute worst emotion to bear. In fact, it’s not. Regret is worse. Through the practice of yoga and meditation
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“And when we go back to the sea, whether it is to sail or to watch – we are going back from whence we came.” John F. Kennedy I know for certain that I need to be in the presence of water. I have lived by the water where I raised my family across the street from the Long Island Sound for thirty years. I now live on Martha’s Vineyard, an island surrounded by water. Ocean, sounds, rivers, streams and ponds the presence of water is everywhere. Water is calming, it helps ground me. Walking on the beach toes in
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I’ve Got Your Back I have found myself in areas so foreign to me. I decided to chronicle my and Jack’s life in a book, Dear Jack, that releases hopefully, April 1.  April 1 is significant as it will be three years since my twenty one year old son, Jack, died from an overdose. Our lives hurled into grief and desperation. Unfortunately, this is not unfamiliar. The publishing industry is foreign to me, rights, copyrights, optioning the book, all of this terminology that I never used. I would have been happy to take this manuscript and keep it to myself.
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